tears.

[katster]

still here, although there are times I wish I wasn't.

still doing homework, which is hard as I seem to be depressed again.

still finding all sorts of buttons, which does not make the task any easier.

still...

how do I have faith in myself when I'm convinced I'm just going to screw it all up again?

g'night LJ world.

Comments

Let me guess, you spent time at home.

[lirazel.livejournal.com]

What Shadur said.

I almost feel like it would be worth your time to find a place where you could just hang for about a month, watch your own moods and triggers with helpful people, and work out a drug regimen that is effective, blast it! Of course, when you get back under all the stressors, it might probably would all go to hell again. Such are meds.

Still--does the Unitarian church you go to have access to a retreat center? I think if you could go away for a long weekend every six weeks or so and just BE for a few days--not worry about meals, take long walks, see the Katster for the trees--it would do you a lot of good.

Do stars know they are shining, Kat? or do they only know by the light others reflect back at them?