tears.

[katster]

still here, although there are times I wish I wasn't.

still doing homework, which is hard as I seem to be depressed again.

still finding all sorts of buttons, which does not make the task any easier.

still...

how do I have faith in myself when I'm convinced I'm just going to screw it all up again?

g'night LJ world.

Comments

[bassbone.livejournal.com]

*hugs*
It can seem hard sometimes, I know...
But there are many people who care about you and do have faith in you. I am broadcasting GoodThoughts in your direction.

[galith.livejournal.com]

We all screw up. I spent 9 hours today playing Computer games. I shouldn't have. However, I did spend one very productive hour on homework, that I would not have had if I had written off the day as a complete waste of time and myself as an undiciplined failer.

Focus on the good, not the bad. Learn what you can from mistakes, but don't dwell on them. William James, the first American Psychologist, belived that emotions came after action, and therefore if you want to be or feel a certain way, the first step is to act like it.

Then again it's late and I'm rambling. I hope this post was of some worth.

*hugs*

[tsjafo.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[shadur.livejournal.com]

*hug*

Then let us be the ones to hold the faith in you until you're able to pick it up again.

[technoshaman.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

Screw your courage to the sticking-point, and you'll not fail.... just ask riverheart.... and even if you do, if you learn from it, then it's not a total failure.

Besides, you've got plenty of time to go out, try something, totally screw it up, have an "a ha!" experience, and start from scratch and get it Very Right. jenkitty can tell you a bit about that...

Relax. The Universe has you right where She wants you. Be. Learn. And Do Great Things.

Let me guess, you spent time at home.

[lirazel.livejournal.com]

What Shadur said.

I almost feel like it would be worth your time to find a place where you could just hang for about a month, watch your own moods and triggers with helpful people, and work out a drug regimen that is effective, blast it! Of course, when you get back under all the stressors, it might probably would all go to hell again. Such are meds.

Still--does the Unitarian church you go to have access to a retreat center? I think if you could go away for a long weekend every six weeks or so and just BE for a few days--not worry about meals, take long walks, see the Katster for the trees--it would do you a lot of good.

Do stars know they are shining, Kat? or do they only know by the light others reflect back at them?