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[katster]

I’m sitting here at the computer trying to figure out something to tell you all. I figure I ought to post in the middle of the day because it might get more comments, but that’ll be for another time. Tonight, it nears midnight, and I have a deadline.

The biggest thing I want to talk about, I’ve promised somebody I would wait until the right time, and the right time is not now. It will take patience, and some waiting. Waiting is.

Got my H1N1 flu shot today. One less worry. Also dropped a class. Also, one less worry.

Things have gotten a bit better since the implosion that was earlier this month, but I still get shaky every time I look at my precarious financial situation. I guess I ought to be happy I have a job, even if it’s only part-time and doesn’t pay overly well. But it’s hard to reconcile that with sitting down with budget numbers and wondering just where you’re going to come up with spare money for things like regular maintenance of the car and clothing and replacing the laptop and saving to move out. Add in the really stupid mistake, and yeah…it’s no wonder I end up in a minor panic when I look at my finances.

I mean, don’t get me wrong, I’m thankful that I have enough of a job to mostly afford my bills and wonderful and outstanding parents, but … as the clock ticks down to the thirty-first rotation around the sun, I can’t help but think that it wasn’t supposed to be this way.

Originally published at retstak.org. You can comment here or there.

Comments

[jaeai.livejournal.com]

*major hugs* I send good thoughts your way. Lemme go poke some research. You are Ohana and I DON'T forget that, ever.

Much love,
Jae, the Stuntman and the Princess

[spitgirl.livejournal.com]

I think there are always times when you look at your current situation and think, "It wasn't supposed to be like this." I remember pinching pennies as a schoolteacher, wondering where I took the left turn... but at the same time, you are a stronger person to have lived through adversity. Finances will either work themselves out or they won't; but when push comes to shove, you're still alive and have a lot of things outside of creature comforts and extra money. You have an imagination, you have friends, and you have a space you've created around yourself. *hugs*

[whytraven.livejournal.com]

Happy birthday. :) I'm glad you're getting to go to the big write-in.