*tick* *tick* *BOOM*

[katster]

Ever have one of those days where you just feel like you're trying to balance on a slope that is eroding beneath your feet...and you're carrying a bottle of nitroglycerin? Or that you've been asked to hang onto a primed grenade?

Those are the *tick* *tick* *BOOM* feelings. Your world is falling apart again, and there's nothing you can fscking do about it. You deal with it, and hope you can find a way to put the pieces together.

It was one of those days where the bright spots were few and far between. I have this suspicion my demons masquerade as my typists when I'm feeling fine, because I got no work done today on the major project. And as the demons are too busy tormenting me to get any work done,

Got a couple minor warm fuzzies today, but it wasn't enough to fight back the darkness, and that is what I'm worried about.

Because it's only a matter of time before the grenade goes off, only a matter of time before I lose my footing and the nitroglycerin explodes. I'm trying to avoid it for as long as possible, but it may be unavoidable.

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[cygnata.livejournal.com]

Hang in there, kats. I promised I'd be there if you fell, and I am, and will be. I... I wish I was better at helping people online, so I knew what exactly to say to help... I wish you were here in person so I could give you a real hug. You sound as if you need one badly.

Like aiobheil said, you're not alone, kats. You've got people who care, and we're here if and when you need us. I've lit an extra candle just for you. As long as you have people who care, the darkness can never completely surround you.

I'm praying for you... I hope you feel better soon.