I hate insomnia...

[katster]

Tired, but I can't sleep. Not for lack of trying, not for being utterly exhausted, but mainly because I can't get my brain to shut off. And of course, the question comes as to why I can't get my brain to shut off. You'd think depression would explain a lot of it, and it is a lot of it, but it's not everything.

There's a lot of tension here. I feel somewhat trapped. Yeah, I *didn't* have to come home for the summer, and I did, and I don't know what to do now. And it's doing nothing but making me more upset and depressed with myself. Yes, goddamn it, I suck. Twenty-four and I'm forced to spend a summer at home with my parents. Even my sister is keeping an apartment elsewhere and doesn't have to stay here.

And I hate it.

But I don't know what to do about it, it's not like I can lock myself in the bedroom until kingdom come.

*sigh* What now?

Comments

[jenny_evergreen]

I spent many, many years dogged by my thoughts and not allowed rest. I found the best coping methods were the simplest. I counted, as high as I needed to, and everytime thoughts intruded, I forced myself to stop thinking about them and stick to counting. I could get to sleep in an hour or two that way. I'm sorry, wish it was better.