i hate this...

[katster]

yep, I'm sure there's something in this universe that can't stand to see me happy. Because every time I claw back, something steps on my hands.

i'm tired of it.

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[katster.livejournal.com]

Naw, it's just been a bit of
feel happy...bad thing happens...get bad thing resolved...feel happy...bad thing happens...you get the picture.

And today's round was brought about by somebody whom I know is a trigger of my depression, which doesn't help. And so it's all I can do to hold myself together at the moment and take it one step at a time.

But naw, San Diego's still on.

-kat

[siliconshaman.livejournal.com]

Hey Katster...

{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}

Sure the universe can be a nasty unfriendly place, and it's up to us to stick together, help each other, and kick it in the nuts.

So... What's up ?

Need to borrow a shoulder ?

[katster.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Shaman.

Yeah, I might take you up on that offer of a shoulder, it's just been that kind of day. Hell, that kind of two weeks. And today's round involves somebody whom I know is a trigger for me, and I engaged with her anyway...and got slammed with worse news. I mean, I guess I should be happy for him, if not for her, but I can't be. I know too much. :P And I don't trust her.

But I guess that's about par for the course, and the last two weeks have been this up and down cycle of feel good...bad thing happens...resolve bad thing...feel good...bad thing happens...and today was just the worst of it.

-kat

[lots42.livejournal.com]

If it helps, that kind of nonsense happens to damn near everyone.

Oh yeahhh....

[siliconshaman.livejournal.com]

I know that feeling alright. Not so much mood swings, as a mood yo-yo. [ poing-poing-poing !! ]

Still, that's life for you, an ever-turning wheel, or cycle. [sorry, I'm into Taoism] Still, look at it this way, at least it's not Up, Down.... stuck!

As long as the wheel keeps turning we keep moving forwards, right?
Still feels like shit when you get run over by that damn wheel though!

Offer of the shoulder is available at any time you need it...
Email me at [silicon.shaman@btopenworld.com] if you want to 'talk' privatly.