there are nights I hate my life...

[katster]

My senior photo. It's not a bad shot. The braces are gone and I wear glasses now.




Our senior homecoming float. I'm the one in the noose, wearing my cousin Amber's sweatshirt.



comment sparking the reason I'm looking at these...(all text maintained as it is. Yeah, I know, I lied on having more recent pics, but...the Amber mentioned in this exchange is my cousin Amber, the guy apperantly went to HS with her and Jowel. I'm older than Amber by a month or so.)

[02:33] kjatster: pretty old, that's my senior pic.
[02:33] ngiles12: wow.. what's changed since then?
[02:34] kjatster: but I don't have anything in regards to a newer shot.
[02:34] kjatster: no more braces, I wear glasses, and the face got a bit rounder.
[02:34] ngiles12: ok.. no offence to you... but i perfer thinner women....
[02:35] ngiles12: large peopel creap me out...
[02:35] kjatster: it's okay. I've got an SO.
[02:35] ngiles12: SO?
[02:35] ngiles12: nm
[02:35] ngiles12: i got it now
[02:35] kjatster: yeah. signifigant other. :)
[02:35] ngiles12: i just figured since amber was like crack thin.....
[02:36] kjatster: yeah, she got the good genes, man. ;)

and the conversation ends there.

So why am I vaguely upset at this conversation?

Comments

[hitchhiker.livejournal.com]

*hug*

nil illegitimi carborundum

[katster.livejournal.com]

Thanks. :)

-kat

[roserock.livejournal.com]

because this person was being an insencitive jackass?

**Hugs**

[katster.livejournal.com]

yeah. A large one, and he happened to score a point right in one of my low self-esteem areas.

-kat

[shadur.livejournal.com]

Because you take it personally when someone you're talking with is being a shallow-minded idiot who can't be bothered to look below the surface to the sapphire within?

(I know literary tradition demands diamonds, but I don't like diamonds -- too chilly, too many edges, very much not you. A gentle warm comforting blue, on the other hand...)

*hug* His loss, not yours.

[katster.livejournal.com]

*grin* Ari calls me a moonstone. I have my flaws, but they're a part of the whole, and make the stone prettier. I think that's what she said. No doubt she'll be along to correct that if I'm wrong.

-kat

[shadur.livejournal.com]

But a gem you are, and that none of us will let you deny. :)

[anahata56.livejournal.com]

I'm afraid that I would have had to say:

"Well, peepul hu can't spel kreap me owt--no offence. And clearly your skill in that area is only reflective of your overall intelligence, because your attraction to women who look like crack addicts is not a particularly attractive trait in you. I mean, why would anyone demand a diseased appearance in a woman to find her attractive? Are you into necrophilia? Are you into needle tracks, too? Are you not male enough to deal with a living female--or do you find that a woman's being drugged makes you more attractive to them? Maybe you should look into pre-pubescent boys, in that you seem to be attracted to that body type, and maybe they have a more compatible level of maturity with you. Perhaps you should re-think this, and troll for females outside the local rehab, or for boys in the public bathrooms at the playground, rather than using your current methods. It is more likely that you will find something that satisfies you there than here. But frankly--you have me a little creeped out. See ya."

Dear Heart--scrape it off. There are folks out there who take their internal sickness and project it on other people. But that doesn't mean you have to buy into it.

Let me ask you--rather than let what he said disturb you, ask yourself if this is the kind of person that you want in your life. Does this person, with the obvious me-ism and lack of tact, even begin to make him acceptable to you, even as a friend? Is a person who would be this thoughtlessly blunt (I love the disclaimer, BTW--as if his pathetic "no offence" suddenly grants him amnesty from the ramifications of the disgusting display that follows) even beginning to be acceptable to your standards of who qualifies as friend material? I don't think so.

He doesn't get to make all the decisions, you know. You get to choose who is good enough for you.

And this clown doesn't even begin to make the grade--on any level. At least, not in my opinion.

He's a Loser. Capital L. Not because he likes thin women--we all have our tastes. But because he is incapable of seeing anything but that. Shallow, stupid, narrow and without potential.

LLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL.

[kuangning]

Well, besides the idiocy of "large peopel creap me out," there's the appearance that he's only "wasted' his time on you because he figured you'd be like your cousin. I'd slap the hell out of him just on that count -- and then walk on. If he wasn't good enough for Amber, he's most definitely not good enough for you.

*hugs.* Keep your chin up -- and the steel-toed boots ready for jerks like that one.

[tsjafo.livejournal.com]

I wouldn't be vaguely upset, I'd be thoroughly pissed. *hugs*

[katster.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Thanks for being here again. :) Yeah. Decided not to waste a lot of energy on the guy, and I tend to turn things like that inwards. My own harshest critic is the Inner Critic, who sits in my head and harps on everything I do. But I'm working on that.

-kat

[idiotwind.livejournal.com]

What a jerk! I know how you feel...I have had similar experiences. Don't be sad though, he's not worth it.

[katster.livejournal.com]

*nod*

Not out looking for a boyfriend anyway, I got one, and he doesn't care about weight. So that makes me happy. Just an arrow in a sensitive spot, that's all.

-kat

[dizzdvl.livejournal.com]

Hey vaguely just means kinda sorta. :) What a little twitbag. Blech. Ick. I hope he doesn't procreate :P

You are much nicer than I. I would have been forced to mock him. And mock him hard ;)

[katster.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I know. I think I've sorta gotten used to uncomplimentary comments about my weight, so that's why it was only a vague sense. And yeah, I just didn't really feel up to mocking him. (I can be quite vicious when I want.) So yeah. Guess he should feel quite lucky, no?

-kat

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[dizzdvl.livejournal.com]

Fuck em all if they can't see that you are a beautiful person :)

Ew.

[karenhealey.livejournal.com]

'large people creap me out'. Like, you're going to hide under his bed and grab his ankles when he tries to sleep?

What a stupid ass.

Karen.

Re: Ew.

[katster.livejournal.com]

Now that you mention it, that would be fun.

"Hey you! Yeah, remember me? I'm going to show you just exactly why large people should creep you out...mwah ha ha ha..." %)

but I'll deal. :)

-kat

[lirazel.livejournal.com]

"large peopel creap me out..."

And well we should. Such a puny little worm will never be able to dominate or control us. We are too big for him, mentally, spiritually, and physically.

And anyone who can smile like you can with a mouth full of silver has more of the essential juiciness of life than that knuckle-dragging hominid will ever know. He probably thinks a fun date is throwing rocks at cars from a freeway overpass.

[lurkerdrome.livejournal.com]

It's the cross us overweight people must bear...we're twice the human being people like that idiot are. They're just jealous. ^_-

[katster.livejournal.com]

*grin*

-kat

sometimes torture works

[koyote.livejournal.com]

what's his email address? or hostmask?

Re: sometimes torture works

[katster.livejournal.com]

It was Yahoo! Messenger, so the name above @yahoo.com should work as an email. I don't have an IP handy.

-kat

[nekoneko.livejournal.com]

I really like your senior pic! That's a great shot. The smile looks genuine.. although your eyes seem to have this evil glint thing going on. XD In my humble opinion, you carry your weight very well. So nyah. :P ;) I don't really think weight matters all that much. I've seen plenty of pretty yet overweight people, and on the flip side, I've seen plenty of very ugly yet thin people. *shrug*