waiting for godot

[katster]

every night I lament that each passing day feels as if I'm waiting for something -- the next phone call, the next order from my mother, the next hour to pass.

Human beings were not meant to be shoved into holding patterns. And I have been in one for far too long.

So much that I'm not sure how to get out of it. Nor that it's anything really worth writing about, but there's really not much worth writing about these days.

And it's the same old story over and over, one my friends grow tired of, and it's hard to keep bringing it up...but I don't know what to do.

So I'll just sit here, quietly, and waste away. It seems to be the only option.

Comments

[shadur.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[wind-wraith.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I know what that feels like Katster...and it isn't a feeling that anyone can get used to. You're right...it's unnatural.
I got out of it by finding friends and doing group activities all together to meet more people, and to have a laugh or two. It really perked me up and made me feel a bit less trapped. Do you think you might be able to get out of the house a bit more to do the same?
*hugs*
I'm not tired of hearing about anything...but then I'm an acquaintance *smiles* Rant away if you like, I'll listen :)

[dragfyre.livejournal.com]

pssst...
godot's not coming
let's go get some ice cream.

[inflection.livejournal.com]

Sounds like you're looking for purpose. You seem to be wanting something bigger than day-to-day living. When's the last time you spent an hour advancing one of your bigger life's goals?

(One of the meanings of my username and its graphic: the point of inflection on a cubic such as this one is the point of steepest descent. But it's also the point at which the second derivative turns positive. The graph is still heading down, but the upward turn has already begun.)

[wintersweet.livejournal.com]

Ugh. Definitely know THAT feeling. Wish I had a map, or a timetable, or something.

[katmoonshaker.livejournal.com]

ugh... hate those times... sometimes making lists helps... 'what can I do to get out of Dodge' lists... not always... but sometimes... sometimes just saying, "okay this is what I want now how can I get there come hell or high water?" works... sometimes just doing it even if you think you won't make it works... btdt... it was scary and at times I didn't think I was going to make it but I'm still here... hang in there. HUGS

[opals.livejournal.com]

A good book, movie, or anything not of this reality helps me cope better with these times. My knitting helps me too, I feel like I'm still creating something new and alive even out of the "purgatory" of those times. If the pattern is complicated enough, it also drives any other thought out of my head.