ahh, the friend is back. :P

[katster]

My old friend has come back.

I can feel him creeping around the edges again, trying to find some way through the defenses, trying to find some way to exert his will over mine.

I can feel the black shadow that I thought I was rid of skulking out there, slowly melting himself through my fences and barriers and back into my thought patterns. Ones I thought were long gone.

I can only hope and pray he goes away again.

because in all honesty, a depressed katster now would mean the end of the world. Or at least my world. When I'm already clinging to the edge.

I can't give in, but I'm not sure I have the power to stop it.

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Don't Give Up

[joshbrown.livejournal.com]

In this proud land we grew up strong
We were wanted all along
I was taught to fight, taught to win
I never thought I could fail

No fight left or so it seems
I am a man whose dreams have all deserted
I've changed my face, I've changed my name
But no one wants you when you lose

Don't give up
'Cause you have friends
Don't give up
You're not beaten yet
Don't give up
I know you can make it good

Though I saw it all around
Never thought I could be affected
Thought that we'd be the last to go
It is so strange the way things turn

Drove the night toward my home
The place that I was born, on the lakeside
As daylight broke, I saw the earth
The trees had burned down to the ground

Don't give up
You still have us
Don't give up
We don't need much of anything
Don't give up
'Cause somewhere there's a place
where we belong

Rest your head
You worry too much
It's going to be all right
When times get rough
You can fall back on us
Don't give up
Please don't give up

Got to walk out of here
I can't take anymore
Going to stand on that bridge
Keep my eyes down below
Whatever may come
And whatever may go
That river's flowing
That river's flowing

Moved on to another town
Tried hard to settle down
For every job, so many men
So many men no one needs

Don't give up
'Cause you have friends
Don't give up
You're not the only one
Don't give up
No reason to be ashamed
Don't give up
You still have us
Don't give up now
We're proud of who you are
Don't give up
You know it's never been easy
Don't give up
'Cause I believe there's a place
There's a place where we belong