i hate nights like this
Jun. 17th, 2001 12:22 amstill shaking, fuck. I think I'll sleep now.
just...why now?
and the most ironic part is that they'd prolly have been friends...
just...why now?
and the most ironic part is that they'd prolly have been friends...
Yeah, right.
Date: 2001-06-17 02:18 am (UTC)Why not now?
Why not now, when it's had time enough that I can actually approach someone and make a request, without thinking that I was going to be dismissed, out of hand... I was mistaken, of course. There was obviously never any respect, there, only a morbid fascination with 'what comes next' and 'how far will she go for me' and when those were exhausted, all thoughts of me, or my welfare, went out the window.
This is often the way of things.
You know, quite as well as I do, that he never wanted to be friends. And if you believe otherwise...you're fooling yourself.
But don't fret, katje; I'll be out of the way of your nice, safe little world soon.
For better, or for worse;
-j