Fuck.

fuck.

forgot to stop bill payment on an account I no longer use. Fuck. now i'm in the hole.

and the first night in three I don't use my anti-anxiety drugs, 'cause I don't want them to become habit forming? You guessed it, I can't sleep. Fuck.

And fuck, the laptop's starting to really look like it's not going to make it to December before crapping out on me, which means I have to carve three days out without it.

Fuck.

I'm really feeling sucky right about now, and I was feeling pretty damn good this evening. Damn my brain for ruminating on things, and fuck people who can't seem to see past the end of their nose.

Anyway, I ought to try to sleep now.

Fuck.