this is the kind of night it's been.

...after everybody quit off for the night or went away to do other things...

[00:33] <katster> And like rats from a sinking ship, they all left, leaving katster alone to face the inevitable.

whee, randomness...

hmmm...playing with an enigrams test. This is what it came up with for me...

Type 4:

Primary Intelligence:Emotional
Coping Style:Reactive
Social Style:Withdrawn
Hierarchical Style:Ideals

Fours tend to live in a private world of their own personal ideals. They are strongly emotional people who react strongly to even little things. In the course of a day, a Four's emotions can jump between extremes. Fours are often concerned with ideal love, longing after a kind of love that they've never experienced outside of the imagination. They also have strong ideals about themselves, which, combined with highly reactive emotions, can lead them to think terribly of themselves. This makes Fours excessively prone to envy, as they see something good in others and berate themselves for not having the same qualities. The strength of Fours is that they can see the best in others. Fours often become artists. November Project seems to be a very Fourish rock group, and the Swedish film maker Ingmar Bergmann is good example of a Four.

...so, for those of you who know me, does it fit?

it's 3:19 AM...

And I haven't been to bed yet. Zibb, boot me in the head for this tomorrow, willya? thanks.

Found another thing on the ennegram thing, and I'm pretty sure this is me. And it makes it true that the four is me. :P So here is the four with five wing:

Healthy side of this wing brings a withdrawn, complex creativity. May be somewhat intellectual but have exceptional depth of feeling and insight. Very much their own person; original and idiosyncratic. Have a spiritual and aesthetic openness. Will find multiple levels of meaning to most events. May have a strong need and ability to pour themselves into artistic creations. Loners; can seem enigmatic and hard to read. Externally reserved and internally resonant. When they open up it can be sudden and total.

When entranced or defensive, Fours with a 5 wing can easily feel alienated and depressed. Many have a sense of not belonging, of being from another planet. Can get lost in their own process, drown in their own ocean. Whiny - tend to ruminate and relive past experience. Prone to the emotion of shame. Air of sullen, withdrawn disappointment. May live within a private mythology of pain and loss. Can get deeply morbid and fall in love with death.

Real-Life Fours With a 5 Wing: Diane Arbus, Marlon Brando, Richard Brautigan, Jackson Browne, Kurt Cobain, Leonard Cohen, Isak Dinesen, Pink Floyd, Harvey Keitel, Philip Larkin, Thomas Merton, Sylvia Plath, Edgar Allen Poe, Arthur Rimbaud, Anne Sexton, James Taylor, Vincent van Gogh, Virginia Woolf, Neil Young.

Hmmm, and I've gotten most of my stupid ex'hell homework done. here's my todo list, posted here because I actually look at LJ most of the time.

1. Last bits of ex'hell homework.
2. Assembly program that I bombed on the test.
2.5. Other assembly program due next week.
3. Psych homework
4. Math homework.
5. Writing stuff for Joii on her question
6. Helping out zibby and others.
7. Reading/writing/project bookworm
8. Starting to assemble Powerpoint final presentation.

But first thing I'll do is get some sleep. Night LJ world!

oh yay...

for the first time since September 11th, I'm not exactly pleased to what i've managed to wake up to. Hopefully it doesn't come back to bite us in the butt. :P

And just when you thought that the recession was getting bad...

Al Qaeda to lay off 5,000.

"This is, without a doubt, the most difficult thing I have had to do in my over two decades as a mujahad," said Al Qaeda mastermind and chief operations officer Osama bin Laden in a letter to employees.

i knew i was alone, but I never expected to have it so visibly rubbed in my face...

was feeling rather invisible and ignored, so I pulled out of my primary IRC channel under both nicks that inhabit the place. A grand total of zero people bothered to even see if I was alright.

So much for caring about me.

Go read Zibby's post, he says it better than I ever could.

As for me, I think I'm gonna go cry myself to sleep.